tHe tEaRs I sHeD...

The tears I shed....
I don't get it why I was crying...
I don't know why I was crying...
It just happened...
And the tears just flow...

I felt like crying...
Is that a good reason to cry?

I don't want to cry...
But the tears kept on rolling down my face...
I kept on sobbing...

I can still hear the quivering voice I made as I cry...
I can still see the flowing tears reflected on the mirror...
I can still smell the freshness of the flowing tears
I can still taste the salty flavor of my tears...
I can still feel the sticky tears on my face...

I still don't get why I was crying...
Is it because the feeling I got while reading some heart-wrenching novels?
Is it because I felt like I was alone?
Is it because the unbalanced hormones raging in my system?

I still don't get it...
I still don't know why...
I was crying that night...
There must be something that made me cry that night...

I still don't get it...
I still don't know why...
I was crying that night...
Silently into the night...

Selfishness...

When I was reading this picture...
I was really thinking...
Yup, there are people like this in my life...
There are just people that have this kind of selfishness...
Well, I think everyone has a selfish side in his or her life...
Only the degree of selfishness is somehow different...
Some may not be too selfish and others might be too selfish for their own good...
For me, I really hate people that are too selfish...
I know there are times that we have to be selfish...
But we have to consider others too...
Try putting ourselves on their position...
I really think that we have to give and take in life...
People that always taking and not giving back are actually very selfish...
No, I don't mean I want something to be given back to me if I give someone something...
What I'm trying to say is that when I do something for someone...
I really want that person to appreciate what I'm doing for them and not taking advantage of what I had done for them...

Whoever feels like I was talking about her (yes... I'm actually giving it away... whoever made me mad are girls...), I really want you to reflect on what you had done to us...
You're nice girls... we can make jokes and talk about so many things together but your degree of selfishness is just getting on my nerve...
The guys are even more considerate than you are...

We're not living in some kind of selfish world where only selfish will succeed...
Damn... we're not even in a movie of Christmas Carol and you're not Mr. Scrooge...
You won't even be given a chance to reflect on your past, present and future by the Ghosts of Christmas...
That's so unbelievable... (We're not even celebrating Christmas... so why bother??)

I'm just a friend... trying to help you to make a better person out of yourself...
Nobody's perfect... I admit I'm not perfect...
But I want everyone in my life to be a little better each day passing by...
A true friend is someone who thinks that you're a good egg even though he knows that you're slightly cracked...
And I want to mend that crack so that it will be as good as brand new...

I hope you're not taking this to heart if you're reading this someday...

The results is finally yours to cry on or to be happy about... guys!!!

Time result ni... memang semua perasaan ada...
Sebelum tengok result... x kira r UPSR ke, PMR ke, SPM ke, STPM ke or final exam dan pelbagai jenis exam lagi r yang boleh korang namakan...
Semua takut and berdebar-debar macam nak tercabut jantung...
Siap sedia EKG... takut tetiba stop pulak jantung tu... kena heart attack...
Ada yang happy bagaikan berada di puncak dunia...
Ada yang frust... apasal aku dapat result mcm ni?? Aku dah study mcm nk rak!!! OMG!!!
Ada pula yang "Eh... tak sangka dapat result mcm ni... Ingatkan dapat B... dapat A pulak."
Ada pula yang "Eh... benarkah apa yang terpampang di depan mata aku ni?? Aku dah budget aku dapat A paper ni... apsal kuar bulan sabit pula ni??"
Ada pula yang selamba je... macam Patrick cite Spongebob Squarepants tu...
And macam-macam lagi r adegan and sketsa pendek yang korang akan lihat dengan mata korang sendiri... or korang lalui sendiri...

But bila result dah keluar... that doesn't mean it's time for us to play around... then bila dah nak dekat exam final LAGI... huh!!! Baru terkial-kial nak cari notes... cari buku... cari rujukan... and VIP time exam ni... kengkawan yang rajin g kelas...

That's not gonna work... Doing things at the last minute...
Nope... You'll regret it later...
I'd the experience and I don't want to repeat it...
Learn from the past...
Plan for the the future...
I'm SO NOT going to waste my life repeating the same mistake over and over again...

Lagi r untuk bebudak final year macam org ni...
Tinggal satu semester je lagi...
The time is ticking... tic toc tic toc... my friends...
No one is gonna wait for you to realize your own mistake...
No one is gonna change your life for the better...
Itu semua pilihan masing-masing...
So... untuk kengkawan yang masih lagi mencari masa...
Gunakanlah masa anda sebaik-baiknya...
Bukan kata tak boleh nak bersukaria...
Tapi bahagikan masa dengan sebaiknya...
Sebelum korang semua menyesal di kemudian hari....

And to all students Plant Biotech 2007-2010....
All the best for the last semester starting this 20 Dis 09...
Hope we all get what we wish for the next couple of years... (of course r nak keje n cari DUIT!! bagi yang x rajin nak wat Master and PHD... hehee...)

JoDoH... aJaL di TanGaN ALLAH...

Kadang-kadang kita terleka dengan hidangan dunia...
Sehingga alpa dengan nikmat yang diberi olehNya...
Kadang-kadang kita terlalai dari menunaikan kewajiban...
Sehingga lupa dengan suruhan dan janji kepadaNya...
Kadang-kadang kita terbuai dalam dunia ciptaan sendiri...
Sehingga lupa dengan realiti yang dicipta olehNya...
Kadang-kadang kita tersedar dari mimpi...
Sehingga teringat akan keagunganNya...
HidayahNya menghiasi dunia orang-orang yang mendapat seruanNya...
Moga kesedaran dan hidayah itu berpanjangan...
Dan terus meresap ke dalam jiwa...
Dan terus diabadikan sehingga ke akhir hayat...

Jodoh... Ajal...
Memang di tangan Allah yang Maha Agung...
Memang di tangan Allah yang Maha Kuasa...
Jodoh menyatukan... Ajal memisahkan...
Jodoh adalah suatu nikmat... Ajal jua adalah suatu nikmat...
Tapi kadangkala ajal dianggap sebagai suatu bebanan...
Terluka perasaan yang ditinggalkan...
Menangis dalam kesedihan atas pemergian yang dicintai...
Allah takkan memberi dugaan yang tak mampu ditanggung oleh hambaNya...
Redhakanlah yang telah pergi... Allah lebih menyayangi mereka...
Simpanlah kenangannya di ingatan...
Siramilah mereka dengan doa dan ayat-ayat suci al-Quran...
Dari meratapi pemergiannya...
Dari menangisi ketiadaannya...
Itu yang lebih baik...
Itu yang lebih mulia...

Wah!!! Suka benar org yang bernama Noor Farhana Ma'mon ni tulis sajak kan?? Dah masuk dua dah sajak org tulis....

Tetiba terasa nak tulis sajak ni... Takziah untuk keluarga Mohd Ariff n Teh Afifah... org xde kena mengena pun sebenarnya ngan diaorang ni... tak kenal pun siapa mereka ni sebenarnya...

Tapi disebabkan kawan org cerita yang Mohd Ariff tu senior dia... dia pun cerita betapa baiknya senior dia ni... selalu nasihat dia... selalu suruh dia buat benda2 yang baik... so, terkeluar r sajak ni dari kepala org yang sememangnya kusut tapi boleh lagi menyusun kata-kata...

Siapa sangka kan jodoh seseorang boleh sependek ini?? Kadangkala itulah yang dah tertulis untuk dia... Kita yang dengar pun sedih... lagi r org yang menanggungnya... berat mata memandang... berat lagi bahu yang memikulnya... Kita pun belum tahu lagi jodoh kita semua berapa lama... and belum tentu jodoh yang kita anggap dah ideal tu... adalah jodoh yang sejati untuk kita...

Bak kata seorang abang... jodoh tak perlu dicari... kerana jodoh setiap insan telah tertulis untuknya sejak dia dilahirkan... jodohnya cuma lambat atau cepat... itu urusan ALLAH....

Bak kata seorang kakak... jodoh itu anugerah Allah... bila anugerah itu ditarik semula... kita kena redha dengan kehendakNya...

al-Fatihah untuk Mohd. Ariff, ibu bapa and Mohd. Farhan.... semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmatNya...